i pulled off your wings...

and i laughed.


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goddesstaby
zerophoenix is having way too much fun with this, so i have to do it too.

ask me questions. anonymously. anything. so if it's embarassing, or maybe you just don't think i'd tell you, you get to be anonymous and ask me anyway. this is your one and only chance to find out any random thing you could ever want to know. it's going to be fun, so do it bitches.

QUESTIONS, NOW.



EDIT: keyword: anonymous

scar tissue that i wish you saw.
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goddesstaby
i'm so mad at my job, i could kill somebody. it's getting out of hand. everybody's all pissed off. i'm the only person who doesn't go around doing things wrong on purpose just to piss someone else off. it's fucking stupid. i'm so fucking tired of this shit, if i didn't need money, i'd just fucking quit.

i haven't said much of anything here lately, have i? not really. there's nothing much to say about the shit that's gone on anymore. i'm disappointed with how things turned out. *shrug* there's nothing more to be said about it. life is funny, and i don't understand it anymore. fuck it all, let's have a party.

the fourth was a good day. i didn't talk about it much, really. i conned some guy into buying me dinner because he didn't have anything better to do, and it was actually really boring and lame, but... free food, fuckers, i win. then i went over to joe & sierra's and got free beer. i'm such a free loader. good day tho. stayed up until 6am talking to a certain someone... but that's unimportant. nothing's going anywhere, and i'm completely uninterested in another relationship. i always sucked at them, anyway. so one of my ex's has a tat of a chick demon on his back that he named after me. that really explains it all, doesn't it?

hmm. yea, i honestly don't have anything to talk about. i'm ok, i'm just... pissed off. naptime.

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3 day weekends are so evil. i don't want to go back to work. i want to go back to sleep. :(

i got a free meal yesterday, then joe, sierra, and i were going to shoot off fireworks, but some lady kicked us out of the parking lot next to their apartment.

there's really nothing else to say right now.

everybody everybody everybody sucks
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goddesstaby
we had this massive fireworks display tonite while sitting in the rain. the thunder and lightning made it 10x better. yes, we're insane. but damn, that rocked.

i was going to go out tonite for a while, but the cramps and the storm made sitting home seem like a better idea. things are so much better, i missed this feeling, like, wow, i can actually do anything i want. no judgement. no bullshit to listen to. yay, freedom, i missed you. while sitting around doing nothing, i got hooked up with the new system of a down tonite, and this cd rocks. guys who give me shit just for being cute rock. being asked on two dates in the same day rocks. kyle being a weirdo and showing up... now... is kind of weird... but that rocks too, i think... at least he listens... dunno.

"i don't really trust you."
"well i don't really trust you either."
"ok, good."

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goddesstaby
I don’t ask why
I just fall into the meadow
I close my eyes
And I wait to die
Yes, I am a liar
Yes, I am a sinner
Please forgive my broken soul

But I’ve got nowhere else to go
They made this world so hard
If I had somewhere else to go
I could be a star like you
Special like you
A star like you
Special like you

And all those picture frames surround you
I saw you in France
All those busters hang around you
I asked you to dance
I can’t take you home tonight
No, I can’t be your man
I know why you here tonight
You in a fight with your man

But I’ve got nowhere else to go
They made the world so hard
If I had somewhere else to go
I could be a star like you
Special like you
A star like you
Special like you

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goddesstaby
the anger fades, and i've been alone long enough to not care so much. i always knew it, deep down. sometimes it's easier to think you have something to believe in than to admit you were wrong.

THIS STORM IS GOING TO KILL US ALL. IT LOOKS LIKE ARMAGEDON OUTSIDE!!!! WATCH OUT PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!

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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind = numb.
Joel, I'm not a concept. Too many guys think I'm a concept or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive, but I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.

if it doesn't stop raining, the night is wasted. this sucks.

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goddesstaby
i feel like i shouldn't even write here now, but fuck it, i was here first. people read this who have known me for so much longer... i could bitch all day about how pissed off i am, but fuck that too. i don't need to prove i'm right because i am. i am so tired of being the one who people take all their fucking problems out on.

after he gets off work, joe and i are hittin up tha warren for a bit for $2.50 long islands. so i can pick up guys, bitch, and play pool maybe. or just get away from here for a while. who knows. everyone in the world has gone insane, and i don't want to care about that anymore. cash said her and her man are probably going to break up because of eli.. which is sad, i wish i could take her to the bar with me. she needs to be a year older already. i want out of here so fucking bad, there is nothing in wichita. i always had a good reason to stay before, now i just don't anymore. these people depress me. i need new surroundings or something.

we get to blow shit up tomorrow nite. :)

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goddesstaby
forget you ever knew me, and just go away now. i'm not going to get into this bullshit about having to feel bad for doing absolutely nothing to you anymore. i'm done with you. you lost. go away.

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goddesstaby
i would rather delete this shit, and be done with it... but, this is my life for the last 5 years or so... no point in deleting that over one asshole. i don't really have anything to say about it. fuck em all.

dunno if i'll bother to continue to write in here. i'd really hate to scare any of the real killas in the house anymore than i already have.

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goddesstaby
i woke up super early today for some reason. i was going to go running, but i discovered that it's really too hot for that once the sun comes out. so for now, imma try to go after work when it starts getting dark.

i have cramps today, and that kind of sucks. i think it's a little early this month, but since i don't keep very good track of it, i'm not sure. i hate how being around other females screws things like that up.

i've been thinking a lot about things. sort of. i dont really know what to say about it right now. there's these brief moments when things make sense again... i dunno how to explain it. and i lost my train of thought. so whatever.

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